Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Is it really okay?

This past week, I was feeling very well, TOO well. I sleep well, I eat well, I don't feel like throwing up at all.

Is it really okay? Shouldn't the first trimester be the toughest? And shouldn't I be really sick?

Is 尹小小 growing okay? Too bad we do not have see thru eyes like ultrasound, don't know how 尹小小 is doing inside, is 尹小小 still alive ma???

Sigh, sick 又驚, not sick 又担心, 真煩!!

Week 9

"Eyelids now cover your baby's eyes."

All We Need is a Doctor

Never imagine something this simple could get soooooooo complicated, or maybe we are taking so many things for granted living in Canada.

All we need is a doctor, IN RICHMOND!!!!

Don't know since when, BC Women's Hospital decided to reinforce their rules of "Vancouver Residences Only". They will only take expecting moms who resides in Vancouver and no other cities. In the past few months, some people were able to get thru loop holes and still got in. But the past month or so, things became really strict and they even check MSP and BCDL for confirmation of addresses, no if/and/or/but!!!!

And because I see a family doctor who is in Vancouver, all her obstetrician referrals are also in Vancouver, and they deliver at BC Women's only, so none of these OB's can take me as a patient.

My family doctor asked me to find myself either a Richmond family doctor, or an OB who are willing to deliver at Richmond General Hospital.

This past week, I was at a panic mode. At week 8, I still do not know where I will have 尹小小, and I am due for a whole bunch of blood tests, but still no obstetrician.

I phoned RGH, they said they have a maternity clinic that I can go to, as long as I have a family doctor, this would be my last resort.

Thanks to dear Mabel, who were asking around for me, finally we found a female, young, Chinese family doctor in Richmond who is willing to take new patient!!!!! ^^

I went to see her yesterday, she was super nice and was willing to explain to me in detail what will happen, and answered a lot of my questions and concerns. After all, it's my first time!!!! And she has referral to a very experienced female OB who will deliver at RGH, so everything is finally settled.

Bonus is, her clinic is new and very clean, with free parking and also very close to our home. It would make our lives a lot easier later when we have to bring 尹小小 to see her.

Also, at first, I didn't want to deliver at RGH because their facility is older, and also they only have shared rooms. But last time I called, the nurse at RGH told me, they are undergoing renovation now, and by the beginning of next year, they will have a brand new maternity wing with private rooms for moms and babies. She hopes I will be able to get into one of the new rooms by the time 尹小小 is born.

Another experience of God's providence, better outcome than we can ever imagine and ask for.

"When you can't trace His hands, trust His heart!"

Saturday, July 26, 2008

天上來的祝福

Pui Pui & Andrew,

Congratulations!!!

大姑姐告訴我妳已經有了兩個月baby, 我們真的極之開心(特別是妳大姑姐,但她叫妳別再養貓貓了); 是否所有人都極之興奮, 電話沒停過喇? 因我們家很久沒有baby了!

好好保重身體, 及多多休息, 大肚婆大曬, 知道冇?

Anyway, 在此送上我及思思深深的祝福, God Bless You!

All the best,
肥家姐 & 瘦家姐 (思思)

Too Good to be True

These two weeks I am feeling a lot better, actually too good to be true. No more nausea, no more dizziness, energy came back so that I can concentrate back on the audit work. And a big bonus, maybe because I was eating healthy, and also eating breakfast everyday, I lost 5 lbs. ne!!!!!!!!!

On the other hand, Drew had leg cramps the other night, and he also felt nauseous, how come all the sickness went to him instead??? ^^

If that's all the sickness that I'm gonna get, then I have to say, 尹小小 is quite an easy going baby ne!! ~~~~~

尹小小's First Set of Wheels

Ya, it's kinda early, but Drew can't wait to get the first set of wheels for 尹小小, heheheheee!

Actually it's because our dream stroller is on sale, at $400 less than the regular price, we decided to buy it early. So here we go, ready to hit the road anytime!!! ^.~

http://www.bugaboo.com/

Week 8

"Your baby can bend his elbows and knees."

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Reality Check

Dear sisters,

It must be the power of prayers, I woke up today feeling a lot more energetic, finally I can focus on doing some work. I was falling asleep at client's yesterday, but is a lot better today.

Thanks Mabel for your encouragement.

Actually that's exactly what I am thinking about this morning, why am I doing this? I am getting a little scared, am I really going to able to commit to this path for life? Do I really want to be a mom? What if he/she is a sick baby, would I give up and get mad at God?

I still can't imagine myself "wholeheartedly willing" to carry BB all night when he/she cries, or to give up things that I want for BB. All of this still very foreign to me, like when I feel sick now, I don't really feel joyful cuz it's something I "wanted" to do badly and I'm willing to sacrifice. To some extend, it feels like I was more determine when I decided to adopt Sophie and KingKong, than wanting to be a mom this time, very scare ar!!!

Cuz you know, some of you girls dream of being a mom for many years and it's like a dream come true, but for me, it's like okay either with or without BB, guess I just have to keep exploring myself before our Lord.

Then on my way to work this morning, I was listening to some hymns CDs, the songs reminded me being a mom is no difference than any other part of our lives, just like our career and our "see fung" and our finance and many other areas, always learning to let go and let God.

In any situations, hold on tight to His hands and not the "things" and"people" in life, it's not about me, it's about Him. Suddenly it makes me feel much better knowing it's not all on my shoulder, but our Lord is carrying my load as well, even sometimes when BB makes me feel loaded and scared.

Thank God I have 9 months to prepare for this, and thank God I have you all cheering on my way!

Princess vs. Queen

Dear sisters,

Thanks for everyone's encouragement, makes me feel like a PRINCESS already (still refusing accept the title "QUEEN" yet), hahahaaaa...

Still need to pray for my energy at work (I almost fell asleep at client's today afternoon) and also my appetite...

An example of how bad it is now: all I feel like eating tonight was Campbell's ABC soup, but for that small can of soup, it took me 3 sittings and 2 hours to finish. After every few sips, I felt full up to my neck, urg!!!! =#.#=

Fresh fruit and ABC soup are my new best friend...

And you girls are right, I was so sick when one of the people at client's today brought back Chinese food take out for lunch, OMG, that smell was horrifying!!!! ~~~~~

I know it's not a big deal cuz all moms-to-be have been thru, so I shouldn't make it a big fuzz; but thanks for being here, and thanks for listening. ^^

C

Thank God we have sisters around!!!

Dear sisters,

Thanks again for sharing our happy news this past week, we're feeling like we're in the clouds, excited yet surreal. And having you all beside me cheering and hugging means a lot to me, love you all.

I still have no idea when is the due date (I think maybe around end of Feb. or beginning of Mar.?) since my cycle was all messed up before, it sure was a surprise from God since we didn't expect to conceive with my health situation.

Anyway, please keep me and BB in your prayers:

1. I have been feeling very sick since I got back from Vegas, can't eat, wanting to throw up all the time, day and night. For someone who enjoys yummy food like me, it is a torture, whenever I smell food, I get sick. When Drew asked what I want to eat, I don't know. I force myself to eat only to make me feel "less sick", sigh! All I can eat are clear soup and plain noodles, congee, veggies, very light things, sucks!!!!

2. My parents are strongly oppose with us keeping Sophie & KingKong, they're happy about baby's arrival soon, but they said really harsh words to scare me so that I will give my precious kitties away, so sad I cried all night yesterday! Also, in the coming year, I won't be able to take any allergy remedies, so that means I can only "say ding" and suffer when I get allergic and sneeze. But the force of sneezing is so strong sometimes that causes me cramps, so worry and don't know what I should do. A part of me is thinking, me and baby will be okay with the kitties, I shouldn't give up so easily cuz I am responsible to take care of them for life, it's not right to give them up and God will protect us. But a part of me is thinking, it's not fair if BB really end up getting sick due to my "stiff neck" decision. Dim suen ne?

3. I have been feeling tired all the time, I hate being so "weak" and "dependable", can't do anything but to lie down and rest all the time, so "useless"!!!!! I guess it will take a while for me to adjust, can't be so "tough" and "go, go, go, go", it's driving me nuts! Also I am worry about work, since I have a busy work life, have to travel around and carry the heavy audit bag, I hate it when I cannot do things. =(

Yet, I am still thankful for this new and very special "responsibility", and I am thankful for you girls around me. Whenever I think feeling sick sucks and I feel like crap, I know some of you have been thru this and is okay now, so I have hope I will be okay soon. And even if you haven't been a mom yet, I know you will be praying for me and BB, and I will get well soon.

Please pray for us, and until the 3 months is up, we will try to keep it low key.

Love you all,
Cannis & BB (Wan Siu Siu / Petit Petit Wan ~ as Drew calls him/her >.<)

Stroller

Drew is a car fanatic, and of course, the first thing that comes to his mind is WanSiuSiu's first ride, the STROLLER!!!

We really like this Bugaboo Bee, even before we have WanSiuSiu, we're amazed by it's sleek and smart design. But then we just realized, it doesn't fit any car seat but the Graco ones, but Drew likes the PegPerego car seat instead, so we're not sure, but it's okay, we have 9 months to shop.

And Drew is already looking at a Recaro sports car seat for WanSiuSiu when he/she's older!!

When it comes to rides, Drew is REALLY dead serious! ~.~

Twins?

My dad's side of the family actually have strong history of twins...

Drew was wondering, would it happen to us? Then we would need to get a double stroller instead! But it would be nice cuz I only need to suffer once and get two children, that's very efficient!!! ~~~

But, would our lives become like "Jon & Kate +8"??????? Ho scary wor....

Week 7

"Your baby has slightly webbed fingers and toes."

Week 6

"Your baby's tiny heart is beating."

Week 5

"The components of your baby's brain are beginning to grow."

Week 4

"Your baby-in-the-making is now an embryo."

Week 3

"Your baby-to-be is making a home in your womb."

Week 2

The doctors actually count from the week of the last period, as week zero, that means by the time BB is concieved, it's already week 2!

"One sperm beats out all the others and reaches the egg."

Baby Development

I found these really helpful websites that gives lots of information about being a mom-to-be and about the development of BB. Since we still do not know the exact due date for WanSiuSiu, I don't know what week I am in. The last time I get a negative test result at the doctor's was the end of May, I guess WanSiuSiu is in week 6 or week 7???

www.babycenter.ca
www.todaysparent.com

It says YES!!!

A few days before our 2nd anniversary, I felt a little *different*, so I did a test on myself, and guess what, it says "YES"!!!!!! What a pleasant surprise!!!

Then I planned to tell Drew about it...

I told him I have an anniversary gift for him and made him guess what it was...

Drew: Can I carry it around everyday? (Thinking it might be a watch or something?!)
Meow: You can if you want to.
Drew: Can I put things in it? (Thinking it might be a wallet or something?!)
Meow: Sometimes.
Drew: Can I fit it in my pocket?
Meow: Nop.
Drew: Would it makes me look really cool?
Meow: Yup, probably, you'll be really proud!

Then I showed him the test, he first went blank *, then started smiling and I can see him up in the clouds, so happy!!!!!! ^_______^

So here we are, 2 years after being Mr. & Mrs., we're now expecting Wan Siu Siu (nick name Drew made up for BB)!!